Love

love

i throw this word around all the time

only when it doesn't matter

when it matters

i can't even begin to bring the words up

they're stuck

i've realized this ..

you were the one i wanted to say it to

but you didn't feel the same

so i've never said it when it counts

ERG

sometimes I think of you

when i'm reading a book

talking with a friend

or watching a movie

theres so many things that remind me of you

i think of all the times we had together and i smile

then i think

all those memories that i hold close

you've probably completely forgot

it just sucks cuz you moved on so easily

I've tried .. its just too hard..

what is my deal .. im pathetic

im just glad were friends again .. i need to start liking someone new .. some new extremely hott kid needs to move here this year .. maybe an exchange student .. i just need something new .. ad cute .. and isnt a creep

blah

I have has such a busy summer that I cant really write down all the time .. so im just gonna stop .. ill just make this a regular old blog

6/27/11

Sorry that I got behind on my blogs again .. but its not like I have any viewers so who am I really apologizing too??

Well anyways.. Monday

It's a bad day in general ... Garfield hates it and so do I!

I had physical therapy. I feel so out of shape because I sweat so much and i'm doing such little things.

OH .. before I went to PT i found out I have an MRI Saturday (finally)

Then I had soccer practice where i always feel like my coach is mad at me. It's like " i hurt myself at your training session.. why are you mad?!??!?!" i was trying to better myself for the next season and I hurt myself .. it's not like I planned it. I just feel like shit there and like even my helping with things isn't good enough .. I at least try .. and I still come to practice.

welll .. that was my monday

6/26/11

today was so eventful .. NOT!!!

Last night i spent the night at the SHHS fireworks tent ... and i woke up and then i left around 11 .. i came home and watched romantic comedies all day ... but i did have fun at the soccer tent with the guys ... if u saw a naked man with a sign by fred meyers .. he wasn't naked :]

6/19/11 - 6/25/11

I was at girls state!!

my mom wouldn't let me take my laptop ... so .. here I am blogging now ..

I know today is Sunday .. and I got back yesterday .. but I've been home for an hour and i was checking my Facebook and changing ... so here was my week

on Sunday I arrived at the beautiful Willamette campus. I checked in and they told me I would be in Buelle county... I got there and they had zero knowledge of me ... I didn't have a room and no one could tell me why. It turned out the lady isn't very good at reading straight lines .. I was really in Carter county. I went to baxter hall, I met my roommate and then I went down stairs to my county commons.

well anyways .. the exciting stuff that happened was there was a fire drill, power outages, urinals, follies, tears, poop, bloatedness, lobbyists, pedos, poppys, red party cups, grinding, and extreme dress code rules.

oh and i shook the secretary of states hands.

I had an amazing time with a great bunch of girls!! It was really a life changing experience, I have a new confidence about myself and I'm proud of who I am. I realized I'm a liberalist and I also realized i'm a big fish in a little pond. More girls need to go to girls state... it really makes a difference.

WAIT! yesterday when i got back i stopped at the Adidas store and timbers scarfs were only 9.99!!! I got two .. then i went to the SHHS boys and girls soccer fireworks tent and saw my friends then i went to the St Helens race track to collect donations w/ MYAB for a youth center oh .. and saw a crap ton of hicks and then i went back to the fireworks tent and spent the night ... and one of my best friends groped me to get her phone back .. ill tell you what happened today later tonight :)

6/18/11

wow .. today was lame

well .. before i fell asleep last night i realized i left my bowl at that party .. erg

then i went to sleep woke up at like 8

went to Walmart then went to Richardson's (local furniture store) with my mom and grandma so she can get a new mattress.. i spent the hour we were there on the tempurpedic mattresses .. i someday will own one .. in the very far away future.

after that we went to starbucks where i found out i can get my double chocalety chip frapachino with whole milk :DD

then i came home and packed my suitcase because I'm leaving for girls state tomorrow .. its a camp for teenage girls about government (which i know nothing about) and so im leaving .. ima try to bring my laptop with but if i cant ill diary it up then blog it up when i get home ...

After packing i went to Fred Meyers to get a fathers day present .. and dinner

After dessert me and my brother got in a fight and itn envolved lots of shouting .. and its sucked .. and he hasnt said anything to me since .. its weird .. i feel like i always ruin nice family times .. we were gonna watch a movie but then we all got in a fight .. so i ruined it because I cant eep my mouth shut when I should .. but idon't speak up when i should either ..

Now im making sure i have everything for tomorrow.. which reminds me i need to pack ibuprofen

well .. today was lame .. but whatever ..

6/17/11

Just got in.. so .. this is for yesterday .. well anyways

My day started rather early at around 1 i woke up being spooned by JareJare.. i instantly cussed him out. I need to stop leaving my door open when i fall asleep .. well then i went back to sleep

I woke up around 10 30 then i sat on the couch watching what I like about you .. Then Kenny and JareJare woke up and joined me

I ate like 5 handfulls of cereal and then went to the racquetball club for a swim .. i hung out with Angie and Summer and swam around and tanned (i'm still pale)

I got home and took a shower then i watched more what i like about you and ate more cereal (I hate ceral by the way .. it was just good sounding today)

Then Queather came and got me for a party ... it wasn't a bad party (no drugs or alcohol) I played some volley ball and i got better and then i watched Tron (BTW its amazing). While watching tron i somehow got into a 6 person spooning/ snuggling group .. talk about weird ..

As i was leaving i ran over to my band nerd friends and i got into a big group hug then i got laid on and then as i was getting off i pretty much got pumbled ...

Maybe this summer won't be as boring as i thought it was going to be :D

6/16/11

It's the first day of summer vacation and my blog officially starts.

Today couldn't have been more beautiful. The sun was shining the sky was blue and there was enough wind so you weren't to hot or to cold. I woke up did my chores and walked down to the racquetball club to swim, while on the way their I was attacked by birds on the walk back I was attacked again. I have a fear of birds and I think they know it, I've been attacked 5 times now in the past 3 days.

Then I had PT for my knee... talk about painful. They massaged the crap out of my inner tendons and then they electrocuted it to get blood flowing .. it was pretty cool

After PT, me and my fro yo buddy Queather drove all the way to Hillsborough for Fro yo at the

Yo Zone .. I recommend it, its deliciousness of heaven. On our Hour drive we rant and rave about some of the craziest things .. i seriously love this girl.

At 7 30 I went to soccer practice, I got to sit there and shag balls and set up the field and encourage people. It sucks so much to have to sit there and watch people play. Its also really annoying when you try to encourage them by saying "just push yourself a little harder" and they come back with a comment like "your'e not even playing". its so irritating because if i could i'd be out there, i didn't choose to screw up my knee and not be able to play my senior year.

I got home around 9 30 and ate a mango, then JareJare came over to play with my brother Kenny, they went to Muchas Gracias (amazing Mexican food) but will probably be back later tonight and i'm probably gonna hang with them. Until then I'm going to watch Idiocracy (extremely good movie) or Moulin Rouge (FAVORITE MOVIE)

Thinking of going swimming tomorrow .. maybe do a spinning class .. idk .. but i wanna exercise.. i'm feeling sluggish.

Well .. thats been my day .. if anything exciting happens later ill add it in a comment

The GOAL

well.. lets start off with my story of how this blog is coming to be. I am Amanda Rose Katz. I am a very safe person, I never do anything crazy at all. I want this to change, I'm still going to be a rule follower, I just want to live a little. I want to document it all down, therefor a blog (diaries are for 8 year olds). So.. everyday i plan to write down what I did and see if I can live up to my challenge.

Let's see if I can do this. :]