Love

love

i throw this word around all the time

only when it doesn't matter

when it matters

i can't even begin to bring the words up

they're stuck

i've realized this ..

you were the one i wanted to say it to

but you didn't feel the same

so i've never said it when it counts

ERG

sometimes I think of you

when i'm reading a book

talking with a friend

or watching a movie

theres so many things that remind me of you

i think of all the times we had together and i smile

then i think

all those memories that i hold close

you've probably completely forgot

it just sucks cuz you moved on so easily

I've tried .. its just too hard..

what is my deal .. im pathetic

im just glad were friends again .. i need to start liking someone new .. some new extremely hott kid needs to move here this year .. maybe an exchange student .. i just need something new .. ad cute .. and isnt a creep

blah

I have has such a busy summer that I cant really write down all the time .. so im just gonna stop .. ill just make this a regular old blog

6/27/11

Sorry that I got behind on my blogs again .. but its not like I have any viewers so who am I really apologizing too??

Well anyways.. Monday

It's a bad day in general ... Garfield hates it and so do I!

I had physical therapy. I feel so out of shape because I sweat so much and i'm doing such little things.

OH .. before I went to PT i found out I have an MRI Saturday (finally)

Then I had soccer practice where i always feel like my coach is mad at me. It's like " i hurt myself at your training session.. why are you mad?!??!?!" i was trying to better myself for the next season and I hurt myself .. it's not like I planned it. I just feel like shit there and like even my helping with things isn't good enough .. I at least try .. and I still come to practice.

welll .. that was my monday

6/26/11

today was so eventful .. NOT!!!

Last night i spent the night at the SHHS fireworks tent ... and i woke up and then i left around 11 .. i came home and watched romantic comedies all day ... but i did have fun at the soccer tent with the guys ... if u saw a naked man with a sign by fred meyers .. he wasn't naked :]

6/19/11 - 6/25/11

I was at girls state!!

my mom wouldn't let me take my laptop ... so .. here I am blogging now ..

I know today is Sunday .. and I got back yesterday .. but I've been home for an hour and i was checking my Facebook and changing ... so here was my week

on Sunday I arrived at the beautiful Willamette campus. I checked in and they told me I would be in Buelle county... I got there and they had zero knowledge of me ... I didn't have a room and no one could tell me why. It turned out the lady isn't very good at reading straight lines .. I was really in Carter county. I went to baxter hall, I met my roommate and then I went down stairs to my county commons.

well anyways .. the exciting stuff that happened was there was a fire drill, power outages, urinals, follies, tears, poop, bloatedness, lobbyists, pedos, poppys, red party cups, grinding, and extreme dress code rules.

oh and i shook the secretary of states hands.

I had an amazing time with a great bunch of girls!! It was really a life changing experience, I have a new confidence about myself and I'm proud of who I am. I realized I'm a liberalist and I also realized i'm a big fish in a little pond. More girls need to go to girls state... it really makes a difference.

WAIT! yesterday when i got back i stopped at the Adidas store and timbers scarfs were only 9.99!!! I got two .. then i went to the SHHS boys and girls soccer fireworks tent and saw my friends then i went to the St Helens race track to collect donations w/ MYAB for a youth center oh .. and saw a crap ton of hicks and then i went back to the fireworks tent and spent the night ... and one of my best friends groped me to get her phone back .. ill tell you what happened today later tonight :)

6/18/11

wow .. today was lame

well .. before i fell asleep last night i realized i left my bowl at that party .. erg

then i went to sleep woke up at like 8

went to Walmart then went to Richardson's (local furniture store) with my mom and grandma so she can get a new mattress.. i spent the hour we were there on the tempurpedic mattresses .. i someday will own one .. in the very far away future.

after that we went to starbucks where i found out i can get my double chocalety chip frapachino with whole milk :DD

then i came home and packed my suitcase because I'm leaving for girls state tomorrow .. its a camp for teenage girls about government (which i know nothing about) and so im leaving .. ima try to bring my laptop with but if i cant ill diary it up then blog it up when i get home ...

After packing i went to Fred Meyers to get a fathers day present .. and dinner

After dessert me and my brother got in a fight and itn envolved lots of shouting .. and its sucked .. and he hasnt said anything to me since .. its weird .. i feel like i always ruin nice family times .. we were gonna watch a movie but then we all got in a fight .. so i ruined it because I cant eep my mouth shut when I should .. but idon't speak up when i should either ..

Now im making sure i have everything for tomorrow.. which reminds me i need to pack ibuprofen

well .. today was lame .. but whatever ..